Optimistic anxiety and staying open minded

Right now I can’t fall asleep and I feel something swirling in my creative thought juices.

It kind of feels like an optimistic anxiety.

Like something great will happen but the anticipation for it hits you when you’re supposed to be sleeping.

. . .

Surprisingly, it looks like I’ll have at least 2 projects that I care about artistically this year.

I feel like I’m barely trying but things are going well. This is much nicer than last year.

I put a lot of work upfront just to get to this place and honestly looking back, I wouldn’t change anything except for one thing:

Care less about what other people think and just enjoy pursuing my curiosities, even if it means changing my mind about something.

In other words, I wish I had been more open minded earlier on.

But the thing is, it’s easier to believe that you’re open minded and tell people that you’re open minded than it is to actually act on your open mindedness.

Especially when it means you have to let go of something you used to define yourself by.

I’ll admit it here and now.

I’ve changed my mind and I think I’m okay with that.