I'm SCARED

(I never really announced this anywhere, but I was in a masters program. Won’t name the program for now.)

It’s not like anyone reads this, but like wow. I just made a decision that scares me, and I know it’s the right direction for me to go in. I met a series of people and had a series of thoughts that led to this: I decided to quit the masters program I thought would bring me validation.

I didn’t enroll for the knowledge, structured environment to improve my craft, or desire for feedback from working professionals. I enrolled because I was scared to accept the idea that I am the real deal. I’m a composer and this film scoring thing is actually going really well.

And I can actually learn on the job and get support from my network of peers without killing anyone (this isn’t healthcare). I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and like anything is possible again.

Here’s to whatever happens next.